Friday, June 10, 2005 /

suddenly i'm missing her SO FUCKING BAD
in the past, she was a friend so close
all the happy times we'd spent together -
and i cherished her friendship dearly,
i never dared admit how much it meant to me
for fear she'd wrench it away from me
intentionally.
but even without admitting,
we've drifted real far.
it hurts so much more to be treated with
INDIFFERENCE.
sometimes it hurts so bad,
i want to scream at her, shake her by the shoulders
let her understand, make her stop.

feels as though she took a thousand hot pins
and sent them, stabbing deep into my heart
leaving them inside to cause me intense pain.
..and the only one who can remove them, is HER.

char | 5:44 pm